Day 4 - ‘stay strong, you can do it’

Liz

Well what can I say.....the smallest of gestures can really help push you in the right direction ‘stay strong, you can do it’ words my mum text me this morning have stayed in my head all day.

Who ever would have thought a packet of wafer thin ham could cause so many issues in just 1 day! (don’t worry I resisted). Today was a harder day as Mike went back to the office and I was working from home, left in the house on my own without my support by my side (Don’t tell him but I did miss him). I went to the gym again this morning and came back to have my favourite banana shake. The day started well...... I then sat down at my desk to begin work, water bottle at the ready filled up. I was determined to stick to the guidelines on the bottle to ensure I drank my 2ltrs. About 11am I decided I needed a cup of tea as I was chilly (living in an old house has its disadvantages at times), so of to the kettle I went. I opened to fridge to get the milk (part of my 100ml allowance) and what do I see? An open pack of wafer thin ham staring right at me. Now this is Jack‘s ham for his sandwich but it was screaming at me to have a slice! I’ve never known wafer thin ham to do this but this packet is different, it was shouting out to be eaten. But no! I yelled back, I will no eat thee, you will not pass my lips. So quickly shut the door again to avoid any more temptation. This same process occurred twice today but I am pleased to say I resisted both times. Feeling proud of myself right now. I stuck to my shakes and water and had 2 cups of tea to warm me up.

Mike cooked dinner today and I have to say it was lovely, roasted veg in curry flavouring, pea and spinach soup & some steamed veg, to the eye it didn’t look like a lot (compared to what we used to eat!), but I must say it tasted amazing & has filled me right up! Overall a successful day and I feel relieved to have resisted that naughty packet of open wafer thin ham in the fridge (yes I am still thinking about it...... maybe drooling a little at the thought).

Mike

Today was a good day. I was full of trepidation leaving for work this morning. Would people make comment? Would I be offered things I can’t have and have to keep saying no thank you without sounding rude? Would I enter robot mode and go straight for a coffee and cigarette which was previously my first thought when getting to work? Would I slip up to the canteen for a full English before getting too involved? I have to confess readers that the allure of the full English was too strong so I dived in to a massive plate of everything............ jokes! Be a pointless blog if I gave in that quick. Work is a good distraction to the hunger and before I know it it’s time to pick Jack up from school. I down my second shake of the day in the minute I had before rushing down the road to collect him. He tells me he wants crisps and sweets and chocolate from the shops and i stand there thinking to myself SO DO I! But to be fair i haven’t suffered much today. After yesterday today has been a breeze.

Turns out a little bit of olive oil and curry powder turns predominantly bland and tasteless veg in to a rather nice little meal. Bang it in the oven for 40 minutes and bosh eat to your hearts content. I won’t ever be a vegetarian but for this short time i can enjoy different tastes and textures.

My new favourite room in the house is seeing more and more of me as time goes on. I had to pee at 19:10 and by 19:45 i was bursting again. I remember the old adage of breaking the seal in the pub on a night out and then living in the toilet from then on. The only thing missing is the sweet intoxication and swaying part. Too old for all that nonsense now (I got the look as i wrote that)

To summarise i am going to smash this!